05 March 2006

How many times can I delete this?

So here's the thing about blogging, I need to make a rule for myself that I won't go back and delete what I've written. That could be a challenge. And here's the other thing, what exactly is the point of a blog? I mean, I know it's supposed to be this online journal, but really, what you write in a journal is NOT what you write for other people to read. So basically (yep, I just went back and deleted something, but only for punctuation use) blogging is sort of one of those oxymoronic things - at least if you ask me - which of course you didn't, but who really cares since this is my blog anyways and I can say whatever I want. I guess in that case, it is sort of like journalling. I think the scary thing is that I'm only on my second entry and I've almost deluded myself to think that noone is actually going to read this. Of course, I can think of two friends at least who might because well, they're excited for me in this new venture of mine. Blah, blah, blah, I'm starting to bore myself...
But really, what is the point of this supposed to be - since it's not really a journal because unlike a random few people out there, I'm just not going to share my innermost thoughts with the likes of cyberspace. As we all know, most blogs are just a way to share with the world all of our exciting and sometimes lame experiences. Actually, I guess the reason I decided to start this blog is because I had so much fun discovering and reading the blogs of my friends sprinkled all over this crazy planet. Lots of friends who I really do love, but have been remiss with keeping in touch. Anywho, I loved reading about their lives and figured they might want to see what's up with me too. (Already I can tell I'm going to be one of those long-winded bloggers - ah geez) Back to the point - I guess blogging is also kind of a weird thing because the dreamy thing about it is that it is the only place in life that is really all about me. The way most of us wish life really was. Of course we know that's it's not all about me, but for one little space on the web it really is all about me. I mean, give me a break - the name of my blog is Rebekistan!!?? "It really should be a country!" How egocentric (and let's not forget ethnocentric at the same time) can you be? And yeah, so I don't really want my blog to just be all about me. I guess my idealistic self would like for my blog to have some sort of "higher purpose" or something like that. But then that can lead to so much cheesiness. Cheese I definitely don't want. Unless of course it's cheese on purpose which is an entirely different matter.
And well, I've written who knows how many words and I haven't said a thing about my total blogworthy evening. I went to an Oscar costume party which was really quite fun. I went as the hot babe from King Kong. Of course, I didn't look quite like her since she didn't wear a long-sleeve pink pajama set with "Save the Gorillas" on the back, but she probably wishes she did.
Yeah...I think it's much easier for me to write about all this random stuff going on in my head than to try to make my day sound interesting. The thing is that I love to write, but just because I love to write doesn't mean that even those who love me will love to read what I write. But then again, this is all about me right? If I enjoy the writing, then does it really matter if anyone enjoys the reading? Now there's something to think about...

4 comments:

rindy said...

Of course we will read your blog! Have you not seen the milyar of reality tv shows?? :-) People will read/watch anything. haha Love you and so excited to have a way to keep up with you now. Kendine iyi bak!! Optum!

P.S. I just created my own blog so I could leave this fabulously witty comment. It's a conspiracy, I tell ya!

Johnson Journal said...

This is really Elizabeth not Billy...oh yeah I have one more blog to read! you better put postings on it every week so I don't get bored! since I will be at home now well if this baby ever comes I will be! and I guess I will have to start writing in Turkish like Rindy...Kolay gelsin, canim.

AmyG said...

Rebecca, you crack me up girl! I love the name Rebekistan...Just so you know, you've got to keep your blog current or Queen Liz and Rindy (who is not queen, but still loved like a queen) will have words. :-) It's a good way to get people to post comments. :-) love ya friend!
:-) amy g

claymonster said...

Welcome to the blogosphere - I really want a "Rebekistan" stamp in my passport! That would cause some fun at the airport.
Truly a great title for the blog, have fun!